I'm amazed at how God communicates with us all the time. It's like a whisperin our ears. We can stop and listen to Him. I remembered several deserts that I have already crossed in my life:

The year 2012, in particular, was extremely difficult. My husband died in March after five years fighting two cancers and hepatitis C. My only sister passed away four months later in a very tragic and sudden way.

As a result of these losses, I found myself hospitalized for almost two months without a diagnosis. I had severe pain and involuntary contractions every five minutes which do not go away even with continuous use of morphine. Suddenly, I found myself in a wheelchair totally dependent on other people to do simple things like brushing my teeth, combing my hair, sitting down, getting up, or taking a shower.  At the height of my pain, I cried out, “Jesus, I believe that only the Lord can help me. My faith is in you. You are my unshakable rock. You alone are my refuge and fortress. My very present help in distress.”

All of the sudden I had a spiritual vision. I saw Jesus crossing the wall of the hospital room where I was coming to meet me and placing his hands on my head. I told my friend who was with me, “The doctors have already given up on me, but Jesus has just brought my healing.”

An hour later, my neurologist brought my diagnosis. I had a very rare disease called Stiff Person Syndrome, a very rare autoimmune disease, where my body was no longer able to produce the natural muscle relaxant. At the time, there were only fourteen people in the world with this disease. I started my treatment with several muscle relaxants, and it was a long journey,  one year of physical therapy daily, to relearn how to walk and stabilize myself.

Now, after twelve years, when I visit my doctors, they tell me that I am a miracle. I am completely restored. I am very grateful to God for his care, his love, and his faithfulness.

There is a level of trust with God that we have only after we cross the deserts. It is there that our faith is completely anchored in Him. I want to encourage you not to give up; keep looking to Jesus. He is the author and finisher of our faith. He will never disappoint or abandon you.